PART 2
Her hair was pulled into a crooked ponytail.
She didn’t even have her purse.
“Chiara.”
She stepped inside.
“Where is she?”
I caught her arm.
“Why are you here?”
Linda stopped.
Her expression answered before her mouth did.
“Your dad called me.”
“When?”
“This morning.”
Footsteps sounded above us.
Mom appeared at the top of the stairs wearing her robe.
“Linda?”
Aunt Linda looked up.
Mom’s eyes moved from her sister to Dad, who had followed her into the hallway.
Something in her face hardened.
“Everybody upstairs.”
Dad reached toward her elbow.
“Cindy, you need to rest.”
“And apparently I also need to find out what everybody else already knows.”
Nobody argued after that.
Back in the bedroom, Mom carefully lowered herself onto the edge of the bed.
“Give me the photograph.”
Dad hesitated.
“Brad.”
He handed it to her.
I stood beside Mom as she turned it over.
I recognized Grandma immediately.
She was much younger in the picture.
Mom and Aunt Linda were standing beside her.
Then I noticed Grandma’s blouse.
One side lay flat across her chest.
I knew Grandma had survived breast cancer.
I knew she had undergone a mastectomy.
But I had never seen that picture.
Mom had.
Her fingers tightened around the photograph.
She looked at Dad.
“Why are you showing me this?”
Dad sat beside her.
“Because the surgeon found something.”
Mom became completely still.
“In my breast?”
He nodded.
“During the reduction, he found a firm mass in the tissue they were removing from your left breast.”
I felt cold all over.
Mom barely moved.
“What did he do?”
“The area was already part of the tissue being removed. They sent it to pathology.”
Her voice became quieter.
“To see if it’s cancer?”
“Yes.”
That single word changed the entire room.
Mom looked back down at the photograph of her mother.
“When will we know?”
“They said several days.”
Linda sat beside her.
Mom stared at the empty wall above the dresser.
“And the mirrors?”
Dad rubbed his hands over his face.
“The surgeon said they ended up removing more tissue from that side. He warned me that while you’re healing, one breast may look noticeably smaller than the other.”
Mom looked at him.
“So you removed every mirror?”
“I didn’t want you to come home, look at yourself, and panic before I had the chance to explain.”
She raised the photograph.
“This is why.”
Dad nodded.
“The second he said they found a mass, I thought about your mother.”
Mom’s voice dropped.
“So did I.”
“I knew you would.”
“And you thought hiding my mirrors would stop me?”
“No.”
He swallowed.
“I thought maybe it would buy you a little time. You’re already sore and bruised. I didn’t want you seeing your body and immediately believing you were going through what your mother went through.”
Mom stared at him for several seconds.
Then she turned to Linda.
“When did he tell you?”
“This morning.”
“So you knew before I did.”
“Cindy, he was scared.”
Mom looked back at Dad.
“You called my sister.”
“You found a photograph of Mom after her mastectomy.”
“You removed every mirror in the bedroom.”
“And I was supposed to come home and take a nap?”
“I was going to tell you.”
“When?”
“After you settled in.”
Mom’s eyes filled with tears.
“That’s exactly what everyone did when Mom got sick.”
Linda lowered her head.
I sat beside Mom.
“What do you mean?”
She ran her thumb across the edge of the old photograph.
“I was seventeen when she had the mastectomy.”
“Nobody explained anything to us.”
“Dad said she was having an operation and everything would be fine.”
“Relatives would gather in the kitchen and whisper.”
“Whenever Linda or I walked in, they changed the subject.”
She looked at me.
“I learned what had actually happened because I walked into her bedroom while she was changing.”
My stomach twisted.
“Nobody had told you?”
“No.”
Dad leaned forward.
“Cindy, I wasn’t trying to do that to you.”
Mom turned toward the empty dresser wall.
“Then bring me my mirror.”
Dad blinked.
“No.”
Mom snapped her head toward him.
“Excuse me?”
“Not today. You’re only two days out of surgery.”
“Bring me the little mirror.”
“Cindy, you’re swollen. Bruised. Bandaged. And you just learned they’re testing tissue for cancer.”
“Exactly.”
“You don’t need to see this right now.”
Mom’s expression changed.
“That’s what everyone said when my mother was sick.”
“Don’t look.”
“Don’t ask questions.”
“Don’t worry.”
“Let somebody else handle it.”
Nobody spoke.
Mom wiped a tear from her cheek.
“I am seventy years old, Brad.”
“Bring me my mirror.”
Dad finally left the room.
When he returned, he was holding Mom’s small oval vanity mirror.
Its silver frame had darkened with age.
One corner was chipped.
I had seen it sitting on her dresser my entire life.
Dad held it toward her.
Mom took it.
Linda and I helped her adjust her robe carefully so she could see what she wanted to see without disturbing the dressings.
Then Mom looked.
For several seconds, she said nothing.
Even through the postoperative dressings, the difference was visible.
One side was still swollen.
The other looked smaller.
Dad stepped closer.
“You’re still beautiful.”
Mom raised one hand.
“Please don’t.”
He stopped.
She continued looking at herself.
“It looks awful right now,” she whispered.
Linda gave her a small smile.
“You just had surgery. You’re allowed to look awful.”
A tiny laugh escaped Mom.
Then tears began sliding down her cheeks.
“I look like her.”
Linda immediately shook her head.
“No.”
“You look like Cindy two days after surgery.”
Mom slowly lowered the mirror.
“I’ve spent my entire life wondering.”
I moved closer.
“Wondering what?”
“If I would get it too.”
That surprised me more than anything else.
Mom had never talked about being afraid of breast cancer.
She attended her screenings.
Treated them like routine appointments.
Apparently, fear didn’t always look frightened.
Dad crouched in front of her.
“When the surgeon said the word ‘mass,’ all I could see was your mother.”
Mom nodded.
“So could I.”
“I thought I was protecting you.”
“You can’t protect me from being afraid.”
“I know.”
“No.”
She took his hand.
“Be afraid with me.”
“Don’t be afraid for me and decide what I’m capable of handling.”
Dad looked down at their joined hands.
Eventually, he nodded.
The following morning, Mom asked him to repeat exactly what the surgeon had told him.
He couldn’t.
He remembered the important parts.
But everything else became:
“I think…”
“I’m pretty sure…”
“I believe he said…”
Mom stopped him.
“Give me the number.”
She called the surgical office herself.
I sat beside her with a notepad while she asked question after question.
What exactly had the surgeon found?
Was the suspicious area already inside tissue that had been removed?
What would happen once pathology returned?
Then she asked the question nobody wanted to hear.
“What happens if it’s malignant?”
She listened carefully.
Never interrupted.
When she finally ended the call, she looked exhausted.
But calmer.
“What did they say?” I asked.
“That we wait.”
“If it’s benign, we discuss whether any follow-up is necessary.”
“If it isn’t, then we talk about the next step.”
Dad stood in the doorway.
“That’s it?”
“That’s it.”
Mom closed the notebook.
“I would rather know exactly what I don’t know than have everyone whispering around me.”
That afternoon, Aunt Linda found me making soup.
She was holding the old photograph.
“I remember this day.”
