But on our wedding night, one drunken sentence made me question everything I thought I knew about my husband—and about myself.

The string lights above the wedding terrace had blurred into soft golden circles.

My dress felt heavier than it had during the ceremony, and my left leg—the one that had spent months in a cast—was beginning to ache.

Across the dance floor, Richard was laughing with one of the caterers.

I still couldn’t quite believe he was my husband.

Inside my clutch was the little leather notebook I had carried everywhere since waking up in a hospital two years earlier with stitches across my forehead, a broken leg, and a large piece of my life missing.

Retrograde amnesia.

That was what Dr. Whitaker had called it.

Maybe temporary.

Maybe permanent.

“Write things down,” she had told me. “Don’t depend on other people to tell you who you are.”

So I did.

Coffee: oat milk, one sugar.

Allergic to penicillin.

Best friend: Megan.

That last entry had a line drawn through it.

No explanation.

Richard had been there almost every day after I woke up.

He was a nurse, which explained why he always seemed to know what I needed.

Once, before I had told him how I took my coffee, he brought me oat milk and one sugar.

“You remembered?” I asked.

“Lucky guess.”

Another time, he carried a vase of lilies out of my hospital room before I could complain about the smell.

“They give a lot of people headaches,” he said.

I accepted that too.

When I was finally discharged, Richard offered me his spare room.

My parents had died when I was nineteen.

I had no close family waiting for me.

And nowhere felt like home.

Somewhere between physical therapy, sleepless nights, and learning how to live around the enormous hole in my memory, I fell in love with Richard.

Two years later, I married him.

But that morning, while we were getting dressed for the wedding, I had asked a question that should have occurred to me much earlier.

“Where are all your friends from before my accident?”

Richard adjusted his cuff.

“Most of us drifted apart.”

He paused.

“The few I still speak to know about your memory loss. I didn’t want today turning into people asking you questions you can’t answer.”

At the time, it sounded thoughtful.

Now, hours later, I stood at the terrace doorway watching his hand tremble around a champagne glass.

This wasn’t normal wedding-day nerves.

When Richard saw me looking at him, he turned toward the dark garden.

I followed.

He leaned over the railing.

Champagne spilled over his fingers without him noticing.

He was much drunker than I had realized.

“Richard?”

He turned toward me.

His expression made my stomach tighten.

“If you knew what I really did,” he whispered, “you wouldn’t be wearing that ring.”

The night suddenly felt cold.

“What are you talking about?”

“I should have told you before we got married.”

His voice cracked.

“I was selfish. I kept thinking if I waited long enough, maybe it wouldn’t matter anymore.”

“What wouldn’t matter?”

He looked away.

“I’m sorry, Claire.”

“For what?”

Before he could answer, his knees gave out.

Richard slid down against the terrace wall, too drunk to continue.

A hotel employee helped me take him upstairs.

I laid him on his side in the bed.

Then I opened my notebook.

I wrote only one sentence.

If you knew what I really did.

By sunrise, I still hadn’t slept.

Richard hadn’t moved.

I started gathering the clothes and glasses scattered around the suite.

His tuxedo jacket was hanging over a chair.

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